Give My Love

It's a long time since I blogged with more words than pictures. I guess this is one of those times when I'm suddenly grabbed by an unseen hand by the arm and forced to write. We had a talk that lasted an hour and a half. Like some holy conscience that descended upon me from above, I took the initiative and began the ritual of questions and self exploration. It was long and there were awkward moments, but understanding was reached. I remembered how dark and quiet the night was, broken by the occassional slap of the wind against the window panes. Refreshing it in my memories, I find myself injecting new forms of advertisement and descriptions which I could not have possibly grasped up till now. A new start has begun again although one could only wonder how long it can last before it ends.

I wonder whether it was purely chance that brought us into this world. As much as I want to believe that as we were as champions, little sperms that were struggling in that life-or-death swim towards the eggs that have won, i also believe that it was an entire chance position. Life as itself, in an unfathomable depthless entity continues to intrigue me and prevent me from givign up on it. Confidence built upon layers of experiences of joy, love, remorse, guilt and strikingly nonsensical ideas was given and rewarded to those who are willing to brave the new fronts. As much as I want to hold you and tell you how much I envision in our future and the plans I have for it, it was not easy, my throat constantly choked and without words. Yes , like the song without words, it was an act without words, just electricity shooting randomly, all but hitting us.

Sitting down here, I also realise the sheer enormity of having slacked the entire 3 months of holiday away, including the slow, agonising first week of school. While everyone around me has frantically began to pick up books, in a mad rush to remain the top students, I have all but remained a himono otoko (dried fish man), trapped in the merciless cycle of Lazy. It has come, the new semester and with it, new challenges of which I have sworn to fight against. The intensity of this cruel entry into yet another semester has reminded me of my past failures. I picked up my abandoned highlighter, which was surprisingly still working well, and began to read pages of books which were once uninteresting and dull to me. The wonders of the science world slowly fall back into place, like a domino train, it slowly cascaded and took me unabashed with it into this amazing universe where so many have went unknowing of its vivacious lure and never returned. Interest is cultivated, and my pitiable soul was entangled by these white lines of pure fire. Yet even then, I hope that I can reach out with what left of my feeble strength, and show you the wonders which heaven has so granted me. I want to share with you the splendour and tango of this world.