life almost flew away~

it's one of those times when u truly felt that your life was near the edge. I went to cycle in Bukit Timah Nature Reserve Moutain Bike Trail. My God, being my first trail , i had no idea it would be this difficult. Most of the upslopes are literally energy depleting. By the time I reached near the summit, I was feeling giddy and nausea due to the lack of oxygen. There were too many trees and it was 7pm. Darkness was coming in fast and i couldn't move. I felt like if I inched one more step i would faint. But it was good, my friends were there for me, so I rested and the reached the summit. It was beautiful. Well worth the climb. The down hill was exciting and many times I almost , almost went into the endless dark slopes. But I survived, downrocketing at neck breaking speeds. It was gerat.

161st Post

I realise its my 161st post... Can't cope with my studies (never thought I would actually be saying this) but yes, I can't. Not until I give up gaming and some additional activities then can I say i'm coping with my studies. 2 projects draw near and one of the projects is literally a solo work, since the other team members seem to be non-chalant about it. I can't afford to get any more Cs if I hope to get a research project for my 3rd year. But I cant help feeling that I'll get a C or 2 this semester. Still finding it very difficult to think nowadays, my head still feels like its in a mud pool, sometimes it gets a little painful. I'm not sure. Hopefully if I adapt a earlier sleeping time and having done (and doing) several changes to my lifestyle, the problem will go away.

Add two more pictures. All taken using IXUS 80 with CFW.




Family-side: Isnt getting any better. It's impossible to say at this moment what will become of it. Everyone is just too different. And they don't seem to understand we're all different and we must respect each other. Cohesion doesn't come from a common goal, rather, it comes from an understanding of our differences. Or maybe both.

Many of you could be more unfortunate than me. But fear not, hang on to your beliefs and face the new future that awaits you!

New Insights in Cancer

Why do people hate cancer? Why do people devise means and ways to suppress cancer? Has not Nature shown us that we're always evolving to be better? Why do we fight?

All to destroy Gods.

I believe that cancer is nature's way of making us becoming immortal. All past events have pointed to this. Do not expect me to draw statistical lies, useless graphs, diagrams. It is just it is. Cancer is the way to becoming immortal. Up till now, everyone has failed. Maybe someday, someone will. But if we keep trying to suppress it, we'll never become immortals.

And now I think I've something going on in my head. Could be a tumor. But lately, I havent been able to think properly, always in a blockade. Understanding things become very difficult, thinking became a muddy task. Maybe its my time... I dont know.